Hindsight is 20/20

 I love the end of the week. Especially the end of this week. It has been a difficult week, even though it was very good. While I was in the midst of the week I couldn't see a clear purpose for everything that happened. Now, looking back, I do. But as the saying goes...

We had a team of 17 from Hawaii working with us this week at Pastor Darryl's church. However, I didn't go to the jobsite a single day this week. Not even once. It's not what I had planned for this week, but that's ok. Instead I was at the warehouse catching up with plans for the summer, communicating with possible future interns, and a myriad of random tasks. In between all this there were pockets of time that I used to process and muse over what had happened during last week at Challenge and consider and plan for the rest of the summer. I was also fighting a cold. 

Unfortunately I spent much of my time stressing out over the details of what was going on this week and what needs to happen next week. I got caught up in stuff and tasks. I worried. I fretted. I tried to stuff it down and push it out of my mind. But that's all I could think about. Until Mallory made me stop what I was doing and prayed with me. Until I wrote down everything I had to do and everything that was worrying me, surrendering it at the feet of Jesus. Until I voiced my concerns and Mallory helped me shift things around so they are manageable. Until heard how God is working in the other interns, reminding me how big my God is. Until I just stopped and breathed, listening to the rhythm of the waves and the dripping of the rain. 

The problems haven't changed. The list of things to do only gets longer. BUT... I rest in the knowledge that God has provided ample opportunities for us to lean on Him in complete dependence. I rest knowing that God is our provider and He will equip us for every task. I rest knowing that HE IS GOD. And that is what changes everything. 

Looking back I see that this week was a gift. If I had been on the jobsite, interacting with the team and working on the church, I would still be trying to process everything that happened last week AND plan for next week AND catch up on the other stuff. I would be a wreck. Because my Father knows me best and knows what I need, I had time to get where I am now. Thank you, Jesus. 

Hindsight is 20/20. 

If you are experiencing something similar I encourage you to pause and pray. Seek God and His priorities. 

Prayer Requests: 

*Unity among the intern team.
*I get to lead a job site next week! Prayer for energy, wisdom, and focus is needed.
*My brother and sister are visiting me this week! 
*Continue deep relationships with the intern team and the volunteers.